Could it possibly be ...

Is it possible ... that I'm healed from my anxiety issues when other people get sick??

Today at lunch, our employees played a funny video from YouTube. I don't even remember what the name of it was, but is basically was about TV people interviewing a guy at a winery. Instead of spitting out the wine like you're supposed to at wineries, he was downing all of it, so he was rather drunk. Midway through, it shows him getting sick. (They had forgotten that I was in the room and am super sensitive to this). I was eating an oreo at the time, and I just turned my head so I didn't have to watch. When it was finished, I continued eating my cookie as though nothing happened.

After the video was over, a few employees looked right at me and excitedly wondered what happened with me, as I didn't freak out as I normally would. In my "previous life", I would have run out of the room, hyperventilating, crying, and freaking out. Now, it was as though nothing unusual happened. The employees asked what I'm doing differently, and I actually had to think about it. It may be more of a realization that just because someone is sick, it doesn't mean that I will be, that anyone in our family will be, it won't hurt me, and it's only temporary. It's also the body's way of getting the yucky stuff out of the system. And when it's on TV, I pretend it's not even real.

I was super impressed with myself, and I know that prayer has a lot to do with it. I have been praying for years (literally) for God to remove this fear from me. Did He finally answer my prayers??

Now ... the real test is when Blake gets sick in the future. We'll see how I handle it then. I pray that I will be as calm through it as I was today.